:) :(

maybe it just me. someone who locked the key of my heart and keep it like a diary. secret, hidden for too long. and at the end, i just don't know how to say it.

i just want to see you. at least we talk for a while. but i just can't say it straight to you. and it feels ugh.
i hope you feel the same. well, i know you do. but...i don't know. it just not right.
i feel like i've missed you. by the time that you're gone. i know, you couldn't stay any longer. or actually it was me who can't ask you for it?

well, i'm messed up. i feel like i'm lost in my own mind. being miserable when actually i don't need to.
it hurts. but it's not your fault. it isn't. it's mine. all mine. and it sucks.
cause maybe, i just can't show it. how i really feel. i just can't say. what is exactly i want.
i just can't tell.

miss you, A.